So I had my podiatrist appointment today. I’ll get to that in a moment…
It’s been a strange few days. I felt very anxious this morning. General anxiety is something I used to get a lot of but very rarely do any more for reasons I mostly attribute to hormonal changes from lifting weights regularly. I still get more anxiety than I’d like but it tends to be related to specific things rather than being a cloud that follows me around for a while.
I was working from home today (due to the podiatrist), which I always find a bit tense because I don’t do it often enough to get used to it and I feel that I have to prove I’ve done some work. If you’re actually in the office you’ve already proved yourself just by turning up, even if you just drink tea and browse the internet all day (which I do). Last week I had a lot of the more general anxiety which seemed to be centred around the confusing feelings of the Office Crush, and I thought this was still the case this morning. Being distracted by these various work related issues, I wasn’t thinking about the podiatrist visit at all so I didn’t think that was a factor.
…but as I walked out of the podiatrist I realised how calm I suddenly felt. All that tension, all that anxiety, all gone. I don’t really understand what happened there, but hopefully that’s it and I will now feel like a normal person again.
So, the summary of the podiatrist visit is:
1. He thinks a neuroma is still a possibility even though the ultrasound was negative, although other soft tissue problems are possible.
2. He’s going to give me some insoles with a metatarsal dome, which I haven’t actually tried before. Apparently I may wait 4-6 weeks for these to come through the NHS, although I could buy them off the shelf tomorrow if I wanted…
3. He wants me to try them for six weeks and then go back and see him if I’m dissatisfied
4. Longer term options will be to refer me to podiatric surgery who will be a bit more aggressive about getting a firm diagnosis because they’ll be excited by the prospect of sticking needles and/or knives into me.
But I do feel it’s improved lately. I ran over 10k yesterday for the first time in … a year? more? So hopefully the longer term options won’t need to be explored.